My VEF friends, I'm having a hard time.
My ex wife is dying of cancer. I still care for her, after all these years. My sons are half grown, late teens, but they don't know what it's going to be like to lose their mom. I do.
I'm scared for them and her.
Sometimes I think the best thing for ME would be oxycontin or a shotgun. Maybe both, just to be safe. Been there, done that, no thanks. Walked away from that edge. Not going to take the chickenshit way out. I owe more than that to my kids.
Right now, I'm torn between.
This and that.
Torn between.
Life is so fking miserable, but life can be so good. Does that make sense?
What would Jesus do?
What can I do, I who don't believe in the Jesus?
What/Who is there for me?
Don't fail me now, muthafkers.
Ah, well. Day will break, sun will shine. Thank you.
My ex wife is dying of cancer. I still care for her, after all these years. My sons are half grown, late teens, but they don't know what it's going to be like to lose their mom. I do.
I'm scared for them and her.
Sometimes I think the best thing for ME would be oxycontin or a shotgun. Maybe both, just to be safe. Been there, done that, no thanks. Walked away from that edge. Not going to take the chickenshit way out. I owe more than that to my kids.
Right now, I'm torn between.
This and that.
Torn between.
Life is so fking miserable, but life can be so good. Does that make sense?
What would Jesus do?
What can I do, I who don't believe in the Jesus?
What/Who is there for me?
Don't fail me now, muthafkers.
Ah, well. Day will break, sun will shine. Thank you.